Anxious

Two months till the big top show begins and I cant sit still. Is this normal? I hear people at the firm talk about how law school was just an evolution of their career as if they born to work for a big league firm.

My background is completely different. I was in a fraternity in college. A college in fact that led my and all my fellow students to believe that our degrees would be worth gold. Guess what Shirley? They aren't. I had fun in college. My fraternity brothers and I spent most of our time drinking beer and chauvenizing women. For most of you that think that kind of stuff really goes on in fraternities, you are right. But thats not all we did. We shaved random eyebrows off, tested food as hygiene products, and designed the very first weight lifting program using beer instead of weights. Well, maybe we weren't this pathetic. Honestly. There could have been a few brewskis and couple drunk nights, but we found time to go class.

I have finally realized the cost of all the time I farted around in college. The uptight people at the firm, are essentially the people that we drunkenly yelled at at 2pm on a Tuesday afternoon, on our way to our film literature class. So props to all you stiffs out there for being so studious.

Time to make up lost ground. But how? So now I am back to the cut-throat rat race, just trying to get a gold plated wheel to run on. I am humble, especially after getting 7 rejections, 1 accept, and 2 waitlist letters. I am kind of worried that maybe law school is harder than I expect, and maybe genetics do factor in afterall. I always thought that I could substitute hard work for my sub-par intellect. But what happens when the best students study just as hard? I am scared shitless though and am motivated beyond belief.

On a random note, saw Dodgeball this weekend. I was disappointed considering how witty Old School was.

Bling Bling

With a BS in Business, filing wasn't my first choice for starting my legal career, but I soon learned that taking a file clerk position at a prestigious law firm has many perks. The single greatest are the networking possibilities. Being privy to many confidential conversations, I have witnessed attorney arguments, gossip, and all the other transactions that make this world go by.

Every free chance I get, I am pressing these attorneys for knowledge. It's hard being so green in this industry. Some of the attorneys wont even make eye contact with me let alone acknowledge my presence. I am in awe at how much self-loathing goes on around here. Attorney's hate other attorneys. They tell me to reconsider being a lawyer. The secretaries tell me they hate their jobs. NEWSFLASH PEOPLE. This is no different from any other workplace. Work sucks unless you are fortunate enough to do something you love. I happen to enjoy arguing with people, and have a very quick wit. Combine this with a legal education and I think that I will make a good attorney. I wonder if these lawyers cry when they get their monthly bank statements?

The hardest part for me is going to be choosing which area of practice that I want. I am not one of those people who "falls into" things. Yes, I have been stuck sometimes but I find a way to plan my goals. Right now I want to help society. Prosecution best fits my personality and helps me attain this goal. On the other hand, I went to lunch with a friend the other day who just purchased a new BMW. I HATE materialistic people, but I would be lying if I said that I didn't like the attention the car got us. How do you pick between doing well for society, and having gobs of money and arm candy? Unfortunately, my two brains are conflicted in this matter. I hope law school will help with this decision.

Bandwagon

So everyone hates my Lakers because we are all "bandwagon" fans. Yet everyone seems to side with whatever team is playing against the Lakers. This seems entirely hypocritical, but then again it takes a mental-midget not to root for the Lakers. Detroit clearly outplayed them. No arguments there. So give me another reason to hate the lakers. Dont bring up infidelity. My personal favorite MJ 23, cheated more times than Charles Barkley eats per hour. He could probably still win this years presidential race too. Everyone hates Kobe because people love to criticize the cream of the cream. I wonder if Pamela Mackey owns a Kobe jersey?

Terrified

Thats the only way i can describe it. In two months time, I am going to starting something that few try, and even fewer succeed at. Law School. I still think Turow writes scarier novels than Stephen King. I am going to succeed though.

I even lucked out and landed a job at a prestigious law firm as a file clerk. Priceless. I know how sharks get their razor sharp teeth. Chewing butts all day. I've heard stuff come out of the attorney's mouths that would make a sailor blush. But even sharks can bite their tongue, and im pretty sure that it hurts even worse. This is supposed to be me in 3 years? Wesley Snipes and Woody Harrelson cant even run the smack as good as these attorneys.

So with an average B-School education, a few years of C.Y.A. training in the entertainment industry of Los Angeles, I am ready to smell my first drop of blood. Shark Bait OOOH haha.